START EARLIER

There’s only so much time in a day.

Not until I became a mom, and a working mom at that, did I really understand this statement.

Before my daughter came along I had all the time in the world to do anything I wanted. I had time for myself, my husband, my mama, my friends, my church, and worked more hours! I even at times found time to lay and read an entire book in one day! I can remember even being “bored.”

How did this one little person take up so much of my time?

Not until I realized that she wasn’t “taking it” did I understand it was something I desired and freely gave her.

I tried the balancing act of doing everything faster to get it all done, but although it looked perfect, it was sloppy on the inside.

I wanted to produce the same results as a working mom that a mom who had the privlidge of staying home. For sure this could be possible!

It wasn’t.

But what it was, was exhausting to try an meet the guidelines I’d set for myself.

During the first year of working mommy-hood, I decided to change up my routine.

If I wanted to read my own Bible, and also wanted to read hers with her, I’d have to have more time.

If I wanted snuggle time that I so often missed because I was working, I’d have to find a snuggle moment!

If I wanted a wanted a play date in the park, I’d have to DO IT TIRED!!

If I wanted some time alone with my husband-without feeling guilty for not seeing or spending any time with my daughter all day either, I’d have to have MORE TIME!!

Where would this time come from?

The only time I had that wasn’t already “full” was the morning.

Now let me admit, I LOVE MY SLEEP!!! There’s nothing better then waking up on your own, with no alarm clock, and just feeling rested. Sleep is something we need!! But I found out I could go on a little less sleep, and my body would run even better, with less irritations, if I just STARTED EARLIER!!

I refused to let my job, and everything outside my home get the “best” of me!! I wouldn’t allow my co-workers and customers at work to get all my smiles, prayers, and laughter and walk in my door frowning!

There had to be a reserve for my home.

My husband would get a bigger smile than I gave someone I didn’t really know. I would get him a refill of tea at dinner. I would TAKE THE TIME to read bedtime stories even if we didn’t get the 10-12 hours of sleep doctors say kids need.

I would start earlier in the week planning meals, so my dinner preparations wouldn’t be confusing and end up eating unhealthy or eating out.

I started earlier, taking the time to get on my knees, first thing in the morning, inviting God to do all the things I had to do that day with me….. Not for me.

Giving me the ability to do everything He’d placed before me with excellence. Not rushing like a maniac!

Especially when I was tired, which was AFTER work when I arrived to my “real job” at home!

I started taking time to pray little “right before” prayers.

Right before picking my daughter up at school…. that we’d have time to talk about her day and maybe even have time to grab an ice cream.

Right before walking in the door at home….that my family time would be filled with love and laughter.

Right before seeing my husband….that I’d show him with the expression on my face how much I’d looked forward to seeing him all day.

Right before starting dinner….that our meals would give us time to stop watching television and look and listen to one another.

Right before tucking my daughter into bed….that this time wouldn’t last forever and I must absorb every second possible, not rush through it.

Right before going to bed….that my marriage bed would be blessed with excitement and energy. Creating a passion for one another that would last for all of our lifetime together.

Starting earlier gave me the time to slow down, pray, and focus on what’s important. I was able to see clearly what God had entrusted me with for “such a time as this.”

That even though I didn’t have the time that a stay at home mom and wife had, starting earlier in prayer, and inviting God to be the instructor of my time, He would multiply my efforts and my little became a lot.

Ecclesiastes 3:1~There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.

Esther 4:14~You were made queen for such a time as this.

 

 

 

JUST START

When we stumble, whether its our diet, our homes a wreck, our marriage is a wreck, we’ve said things out of anger we can’t take back, or just feel like life is too busy and just too much!! Our schedules overloaded and honestly, its exhausting to even think about…..

We know we need to go on a diet, but keep eating not just a cookie but the entire pack of Oreo’s!

We know we need to cuddle with our babies and read bedtime stories, but are “Just too tired tonight”, “I will tomorrow”.

We know we need to pay our husbands some attention and have all these ideas of what we will do tonight to make him feel loved, but fall asleep as soon as we get in bed.

The days, weeks, and even months go by.

We know what we need to do but are just too busy and too tired.

You think about it every day, and yet fail again. What do we do about this?

JUST START!!!

Start right where you are.

Whether its 7:30 or 9:30, take 5 minutes to stop and read one book with your child.

Whether you’ve shaved your legs or taken a shower or not, cuddle up to your man. Wrestle for one minute, just touching and laughing with one another.

Whether you’ve overeaten and feel like you may as well eat as much “crap” today as you want-“You will start Monday”. STOP!!! Start right now choosing to feel better and have more energy so you can do the things that really matter. (They usually come at the end of your day when you are almost out of fuel).

Make an action plan. Even if it doesn’t work, it will get you started and you will become encouraged. Even if tomorrow you must start again, YOU MUST START!!

Most importantly, PRAY. PRAY. PRAY.

Ask God for His help. If we could do it without Him, we would be!! He’s been waiting on you to finally ask…..

Job 8:7-And though YOU STARTED with little, you will end with much.

“My first day of Kindergarten”

I am a mother of a Kindergartener.  School started this week and not only has my daughters life changed, but also mine.

I had so much anxiety leading up to this moment.  It wasn’t that I was scared she wouldn’t fit in, that someone would harm her, or that she was going to grow up so fast, as everyone had warned me.  Mine was more of a selfish anxiety.

I wanted to be a stay at home mom.  Period.  My hearts desire was to be able to be the mom and wife God called me to be.  In my mind I couldn’t do that working.  At least not everything I wanted to do.  This beginning for her was an ending for me!  I would never have the chance to stay at home with her again.

I felt sad!

Why did God not allow this dream of mine to be fulfilled?  The Bible says “He will give you the desires of your heart” right?

I know the order God designed the family to be in!!  God first, your husband, your children, THEN your job, ministry, etc.  Somehow I could not make this work.  The one thing in life I wanted the most, I couldn’t have.

I am a pretty positive person (and a perfectionist might I add) so I tried to make the best of everything, using the time I did have as quality time.  Games, movies, swimming, parks….. anything you could think of, we did together, as a family, and it was awesome!!

Family game night! (My husband would let us win at UNO once in awhile)

We had a date night every Thursday, just she and I.  “Girl time” as we call it.  We stayed up late talking and laughing!  We watched cartoons and ate junk food in my bed until daddy came home!

We had bedtime stories snuggled up together nightly.

I shared with her my love for gardening and fresh flowers.  How to get away from “the noise” in nature and enjoy Gods creations.

She would walk the yard with me in the morning while having my prayer time, as she listened quietly and occasionally asked questions.

She learned to make her own bed every morning.

To clean up her toys.

To share. (Everything but her blankie and Lucky the dog :))

To love.

To pray.

All of this TOGETHER!

BUT IT STILL DIDN’T FEEL LIKE ENOUGH!!!!

The night before her first day, as I was packing her Hello Kitty lunch box, I broke down!   As I cried, I prayed out loud and lifted her up to Jesus.  I prayed for her teacher, her new friends, her safety, her God given purpose, even down to her husband.  I asked God to help me be the mother she “needed,” not the mother I “wanted” to be.  My heart was broken.  I cried and prayed until I got it all out, feeling so sleepy that I was ready for bed.

The week before, we redecorated her room and organized everything.  We got rid of all the “baby” things she no longer needed since she was going to “kindergarten.”  We came across a devotional her Nana had given her a few years ago, “Gods Little Princess Devotional Bible” by Sheila Walsh.  God laid it upon my heart to introduce this to her with her new “big girl” routine.

The first morning came.  We had waffles with chocolate milk in her own coffee cup, at the table, TOGETHER.  As we sat there reading that morning,  it was if God was speaking straight to me from Heaven!  Rebekah was just going out to the well to get water, like she did every day.  She didn’t know that God was watching.  God was planning her future.  By watering a strangers camels, she was chosen for a new royal position.  God picked her to become Isaacs princess bride.  She would become the mother of Jacob.  Jacob became the father of Israel, Gods chosen people.

It went on to say “God is watching.  He is training you for your special calling one day. God uses the ordinary things~like watering camels (maybe it’s feeding your cat) and serving others to do mighty works.  Like Rebekah, we need to be busy loving Jesus by serving others.  God will move at just the right time to work out His amazing plan for your life.

I felt like I had crawled into my fathers lap and He assured me “I dont have to be perfect because HE IS.”

I felt His comfort.

I felt His love.

I felt at peace KNOWING God was watching!  (Job 10:12~You gave me life and showed me kindness, and in your providence watched over my spirit.)

KNOWING He knows the desires of my heart!  (Psalm 37:4~Delight yourself in theLord and He will give you the desires of your heart.)

KNOWING He has a plan for my daughters life, using my life as her mother!  (Jeremiah 29:11~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans togive you hope and a future.)

KNOWING that He is working ALL THINGS together for my good!  (Romans 8:28~And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.)

KNOWING that even though I didn’t get to stay home, “WE” are in this TOGETHER!!  God, my husband, myself, and my daughter. In ordinary, everyday life.  Walking in His love……KNOWING HE IS ENOUGH!!  Deut 31:8~The Lord himself goes before you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.  Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged.)